JT’s Inside Out

I was browsing my niece’s blog the other day and she blogged about her having a poem fight via MSN with her friend. It went like this

Starter:

A lonely soldier.
Marching on.
Braving thunderstorms.

A weeping wife.
Wailing away.
Missing, pining.

A fiery gunshot.
The end
Of love?

Her friend’s rebuke:

A busy businessman.
Talking business.
Earning money.

An economic crisis.
The end
Of love?

Her comments : poems don’t really have to be bombastic or flowery all the time to be nice and clever……

And then suddenly I realized I’d never in my lifetime written any single poem !!!!!!!! Unbelievable rite ! Well, I’m Chinese educated so I was never asked to in school. I then had this sudden urge to write a poem despite not knowing what a proper structure should be and  here’s my courageous try :

A regular teenager,
Hormones a rampaging,
Rebellious acts, never ending…

A typical parent/s,
Refuse to treat it transparent,
Tried all methods, yet unaccepted….

Series of conflict,
Yet never end,
This Love !

It’s never too late to try ! So stop laughing or I’ll smack you right now….New trick for the old dog, LOL !!

The point is, there’s never ending to learning, I came across too many "so called adults" who are ashame to admit that the younger can excel beyond them. If this is how you feel too, let me tell you, your road to wisdom has just stopped right here !. Never be ashame to try, it’s never too late, it’s only shameful or pitiful if you stop your own opportunity to keep on learning.
Even from my 3 year old son, I still get to learn new things that I’ve never thought before……

So, have you written a poem before and are you going to try ?

Well said by my niece, your own poetry may surprise you one day by telling you how we really feel deep down, don’t they? Reading some of your own poems again will make you feel and understand your own identity better whether as a friend, daughter/son or person……Why ? because they portray your inner self…….

BTW, my inspiration for my own poem was from watching my many nieces and nephews grow up and going thru different and difficult phases of life…..

Mother’s Day is just around the corner and I think the sentiments is stirring up my mind a little, some precious thoughts have just pop up so let me quickly jot it down before it get lost in the "hussle bussle" of life.

Mother’s (parental) love for her child/children is unconditional…….(some teenager out there reading this may disagree, but trust me on this one, perhaps the method may not be appropriate but the good intention can never ever be doubted….some day later you will realize…*sigh…you need to go through life quite a bit to eventually understand these sort of things sometimes…sorry no short cuts there)

I’ll up-date this article when I think of anythingelse that fits this description….

Last weekend was supposed to be a wonderful weekend for the family. It was supposed to be Justin’s “ 1^st introduction” to the sun and the beach. Build sand castles, pick sea shells, sea food dinners for the family, lalalala, it was to be perfect !!! BUT NO…guess who was the culprit that intervened ? ROTAVIRUS

Unfamilair ? It is the major cause of diarrhea and vomiting in young children worldwide. The infection is highly contagious and may lead to severe dehydration and even death.(freaky!)

Justin was the first who got it about a week before the trip. He was vomiting and purging real bad, especially the first day. It was beyond he’s control, we were like changing his diapers a dozen times strong. Visited he’s pediatrician twice the same day but sadly the only cure was to let his system “flush” it all out. I’ll loose the details, it’s too agonizing to talk about it, all I can say is that it’s pure torture for him and heart breaking for me to watch.

My poor Justin…….

Although the symptoms is known to last 4-6 days. It definitely took Justin a little more than that. Just 1 day before the trip he was only 80% ok. So there were completely no signs of enthusiasm or joy of holiday mood in the air. No one packed their bags, me being the most reluctant one pack my bag eventually at the late hours of after 10.00pm that night. I half heartedly wanted to cancel the trip but the other half wanted to fulfill our promise of bringing him to the beach.

Beach day, good news! Justin’s doing much better, although still a little “zombie –like”. BAD NEWS, my mum and my sis who is also going, caught the virus now. It must be a cross-over or a certain strain that can affect adult as well. Me myself although not sickly but feel somewhat not up to par. Looks like just by washing our hands like 20 times a day after handling Justin just isn’t enough to do the trick.

It was Doctor’s clinic that morning for my mum and sis, and afternoon we departed to PD nevertheless. We all agree to give it all try ! But spirits were way low………Justin even traveled in he’s PJ

End result, we did not go anywhere near the beach at all, except sleep the whole time at arrival of the apartment. That night the virus came on bad for me, I merely slept since I was “buzy” vomiting.

This must be the worst holiday in my life !!!

Not to mention, it was the part 1 clebration of mf 6^th registration anniversary. Part 2 was a western dinner that weekend, which had to be canceled too, since I took several days to regain some shape myself. Caringly, Daniel promised to postphone the dinner when we are all better. Woo Hoo !

Thankfully, there is a rotavirus vaccine available now, I totally, absolutely, completely want to send Justin for he’s, before another strain gets to him. I heard there are like a – g strain/grade.

So for those out there with children,(especially under 2) pls ask

ur

pediatrican about ROTAVIRUS vaccine. You certainly don’t want to go through this, BELEIVE ME.

Thanks to the "pronto" response of my dear niece Melissa, to my ever 1st blog, amazingly my next blog is born ! Wah La ! Despite I claimed it would be the next decade or so.

My blog is about "CAM WHORING" !!!!!!

This term has been bothering me since I learnt about it. Truly, I query why the use of such a term coz frankly, the "whore" word disgust the actual meaning that it should potray now a days. Hence my research for it’s origins. (See in color)

A cam whore (sometimes cam-whore or cam-slut) is an individual who exposes himself or herself on the Internet with webcam software in exchange for goods, usually via enticing viewers to purchase items on their wish lists or add to their online accounts. While the label is usually considered derogatory and insulting, it is also used by these people to describe themselves, occasionally in a self-deprecating manner.

The term "cam whore" is also used to refer to individuals who post pictures or videos of themselves on the Internet to gain attention. The term disparages those who post pictures of themselves at inappropriate times or places, and usually implies self-absorption. This second usage of the term, deriding vanity and histrionics, is overtaking the prior, more intuitive definition. It is usually synonymous with attention whore.

The term was first used in print as early as November 2001, but may have originated in Australia as early as 1999.

Some insight into the world of underage cam whores was provided by a major article in the New York Times. It described the story of Justin Berry, a thirteen-year old boy who, after hooking up his webcam and listing himself on an online forum in order to make friends, was propositioned by older men to strip and masturbate on camera. CNN referred to him as a cam whore. He eventually started his own paysite, let himself be molested for money, sold video recordings of his encounters with Mexican prostitutes, and helped to hire other underage models. He made several hundred thousand dollars over five years. In the end he turned all information over to prosecutors in exchange for immunity.

So for shouting out loud, I hope someone out there please start a campaign or something to ask for suggestion of a more appropriate term ? and turn this around.

Point of interest, do we have to blindly follow things that dont seem to apply anymore?

Is it Because that’s what everyone says? Or, "Who cares, I’m not the one who started it ?" Or "But that’s the trend ?" Or perhaps "I dont think it’s up to me change it ?" 

I don’t "cam-whore", I have no objection of it either, but I just cant stand the term. It’s normally the younger generation that "cam-whore" so it’s pretty unhealthy since indirectly they are being related to the "whore" word and they will think it is OK ???

How about saying, look, here’s my "Self Snip" or "My Cam’s Eye View" ?

I suddenly feel a wee bit lighter after spilling my thoughts about it !!!

It suddenly came to me as a puzzle !? I’m the type with 1001 ideas going on in my head but yet never blog to spill any. Hmm…I wonder ? First thought, usually the most honest answer, LAZYNESS……LOL

Well, perhaps it’s the extra energy and total boredom that incubates my 1st ever blog. So to those who yet to try, come join the gang, waste the dullness and burn those fats……..

Till then…..